Sunday, March 29, 2020 - Before the storm...
It's been a long day. And I woke up at noon.
I couldn't sleep last night with thoughts of panic and doom and gloom. I try my best to remain positive, knowing that we are all in this together. It's not like I'm going through this alone. Although sometimes, I think going it alone, might be better.
I woke up and made Kiefer eggs - no surprise there.I'm not sure what I did with four hours but I had a call with a business partner and reviewed an invoice where we were double charged for things several times. Annoying. I know we are all struggling and wondering where our next paycheque will come from but that shouldn't mean ripping others off! We also reviewed what message we will be sending out to our tenants. Then, at 4:00 pm I hopped on the treadmill and walked for an hour. Did a very little bit of running. I am very purposefully starting slow and pacing myself. It felt good. I liked the feel of my heart racing and sweat dripping from me. I enjoyed my shower. When do you actually get to say that about a shower? I took my time, enjoying the warm water. Lathering and rinsing with more purpose - if you can even do that. How many times have we showered and we are just on autopilot? Completely weird to say I was 'present' in my shower.
Changed into warm clean pjs - I mean 6:00 pm when you're stuck at home on a Sunday - there's no point in getting dressed right?
I want to be motivated. I want to be able to say, 'hey look at ALL this stuff I got done while at home', but I'm finding it difficult. My anxiety swells and contracts by the hour. And the nights seem to be the worst when the voices in my head, the worries and the 'what ifs' will not be silent.
4:30 am was the last time I saw on the clock last night.
So for me, I'm focusing on keeping a schedule. Even if we fall off a bit here or there, it will be a good way to guide me as to where I 'should be' in the day.
I have SO many sewing projects I could literally spend every hour at home sewing and I wouldn't get through them. But again, there's the problem with motivation.
Tomorrow my plan is to sew some medical masks for a few friends who are being rationed at work. Perhaps if I can make 3-4 for each of them, they will last them all a little bit longer.
It's 8:40 pm now. I want to start listening to audible books with the boys so perhaps I'll start that tonight. I've barely seen anyone today. I think we are learning a groove of this 'we're all at home all the time' thing.
That's it for today. I have to put the kids to bed - which is why this is titled 'before the storm'. Still a fight every single night of the week.
Sigh.
Well thank goodness for consistency... I guess?
I couldn't sleep last night with thoughts of panic and doom and gloom. I try my best to remain positive, knowing that we are all in this together. It's not like I'm going through this alone. Although sometimes, I think going it alone, might be better.
I woke up and made Kiefer eggs - no surprise there.
Changed into warm clean pjs - I mean 6:00 pm when you're stuck at home on a Sunday - there's no point in getting dressed right?
I want to be motivated. I want to be able to say, 'hey look at ALL this stuff I got done while at home', but I'm finding it difficult. My anxiety swells and contracts by the hour. And the nights seem to be the worst when the voices in my head, the worries and the 'what ifs' will not be silent.
4:30 am was the last time I saw on the clock last night.
So for me, I'm focusing on keeping a schedule. Even if we fall off a bit here or there, it will be a good way to guide me as to where I 'should be' in the day.
I have SO many sewing projects I could literally spend every hour at home sewing and I wouldn't get through them. But again, there's the problem with motivation.
Tomorrow my plan is to sew some medical masks for a few friends who are being rationed at work. Perhaps if I can make 3-4 for each of them, they will last them all a little bit longer.
It's 8:40 pm now. I want to start listening to audible books with the boys so perhaps I'll start that tonight. I've barely seen anyone today. I think we are learning a groove of this 'we're all at home all the time' thing.
That's it for today. I have to put the kids to bed - which is why this is titled 'before the storm'. Still a fight every single night of the week.
Sigh.
Well thank goodness for consistency... I guess?
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